AJ Pena

Lyrics

I still cringe at what I did at 18
Was relying on online dopamine
Overshared to strangers for validation
Inflated importance of my fixation
It felt good so it should fill the void
But I knew the truth couldn't avoid

Using accomplishments
To prove my worth
Faking my confidence
For love that I deserved
In constant confusion
Due to disillusion
My self hatred bred that curse

And when those supposed I had a problem
I'd deflect in protest won't involve them
Was a sin to burden anyone else
That was a mantra I told myself
If the current me could be there now
I'd comfort the kid’s hurt tell him how

He used accomplishments
To prove his worth
He fakes his confidence
For love that he deserves
Oh I would beg him to
Not try to push through
Stop self hatred break the curse

Those formative years
Were a stepping stone
To a new existence
Younger me should know

Now my accomplishments
Don't prove worth
Now I have confidence
and have love I deserve
As cliche as it sounds
I was lost but I found
No self hatred no more curse
No self hatred no more curse
No self hatred no more curse